Believing in God isn’t simply a bargain I make with Him in return for things like Ralph’s safety. I choose to believe because of the realization that God’s perfect love is so all-encompassing that He can and does love all of us the same. Regardless of the past, present, or future, God loves us, and that love drives out all the fear I may face.
Is this the only call Ralph has been on that has frightened me? Absolutely not. The threats become more prevalent each day. Officers everywhere are spit on, threatened, hit, and shot at, yet they continue to do their job through it all. What keeps me going is the knowledge that my husband is prayed for by so many. Even when days get really difficult, and the streets seem worse than ever before, I continue to believe that God is my refuge, my strength, and my help in times of trouble.
An original version of this story was published in the Texas Conference FLAME Magazine.